January 2010
getting ready. byee.
I lost cody's guitar pick.
I’ve worn that thing for 6 years now. =/ I feel empty and sadder than I was.
promise.
girl: I just want to give up. I have nothing here.
boy: you can't go until I do.
girl: promise you'll always be here?
boy: as long as you promise that you will be.
girl: I promise.
boy: me too.
I just want to see you smile.
I can't.
I can’t sit here and watch as you give up. I know everything hit you at once, and you think everything is a waste now. I know you’re sad, I know you don’t want to even do anything anymore. I just want you to know that no matter what, I’m always going to be here for you. I know you already know it too, but I felt I had to say it anyway. You’re stronger than this, I...
is it bad that I'm relating to Bayside lyrics more...
and it’s all their really depressing shit. Oh wait, that’s bayside in general. =/
FUCK.
I hate this feeling, but it seems like I’m gonna live it forever.
December 2009
“Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall.
But I did...”
– Bayside- Blame it on Bad Luck
he doesn't know that I know the real reason.
I should go shovel.
wish me luck as I freeze my ass off because I don’t have proper snow attire.
(Which I should since I snowboard and stuff)
“These lives we live test negative for happiness Flat line, no pulse, but eyes...”
– Rise Against
why am I more scared of this than he is?
don't text me and then when I ask you questions,...
if you didn’t feel like talking, then you shouldn’t have said hiii to me in the first place.
stop trying to shut me out. I know what’s going on. =[
“Have you kissed more than ten people this year?
yes? wait… yeah.”
– so i was reading through my old facebook notes, and came across this question. Christina, what are you doing with yourself? haha
I am deathly afraid of everything, I just have a...
“The past is a great place and I don’t want to erase it or to regret it, but I...”
– Anonymous (via kidlovesdoodles)
I almost died driving home.
I spun out three times. =[ I hate driving in bad weather so much.
Stupid work being half an hour away on a good day. Not to mention I have to go over this giant hill to go home, and no one drives normally on it, it’s always a race.
Also my car’s a piece of shit.
so let’s just say I cried the entire drive home.
"I'm not afraid to die"
those words scare me more than anything.
you probably think I'm stoked.
in reality I just want you to be happy.
And there was happiness in life beyond the sorrow...
(via theonlygirlieverloved)
154) Anxiety is ruining my life.
sendalittlerain:
thelovelybones:
nostalgicdreams:sincerementprecious:theblogforyou
*running, more like
ruining and running.
what a tremendously weird week.
that’s all I’ve got to say.
iwanttosaveyou:
oceanbetween:
...
iwanttosaveyou:
oceanbetween:
...
I cause cancer. that's what I've decided.
a lot of people that are ridiculously important in my life have gotten it.
my aunt.
Cody.
my mom.
my mom’s best friend Carl, who I looked up with revere.
Scott had it, but ended up dying from a car accident.
I had/have it.
my dad had it before.
my papou died from it.
my other aunt that recently passed away.
and now Sean.
what the fuck? am I destined to just get hurt...
Do a barrel roll!
too8ightyfoor:
Star Fox 64? hell yes, not stopping till Andross is defeated.
<3 I love starfox so much.
Give it All- Rise Against
13899.) I don't know what to do anymore. Life...
(via blogsecret)
“And every promise that you never could make
Is history like you and me today...”
– Just Surrender- I Said it Before
galvinbird:
Tonight’s theme is Blink182, and I...
I am too cold to stay in my room any longer.
getting out of my igloo of a room. bye bye.
oh yeah.
my best friend wants to know why I’m sad that he has tumors on his lungs.
It couldn’t be that I lost one of my best friends 4 years ago to cancer or anything.
nope. that definitely couldn’t be it.
It couldn’t be that that same best friend that died had one of the biggest effects on my life ever.
nope. nothing to do with that at all.
Sorry I’m worried. It’s...